Meh.

Our appointment this morning was decent. I say "decent" because my follicles have grown since Saturday, but in a somewhat frustrating manor. They are at 18.5, 14.5, 14.5, 14, 12, and 12. So, one mature follicle and 5 that may or may not reach maturity. Because of the 18.5 and the risk of it growing too much and becoming a cyst, RE doesn't want me to continue with any more medicine (Follistim) this cycle. We were instructed to wait until tomorrow evening to trigger, hoping that the smaller ones will grow on their own in the meantime (because with my luck, I'm certain that will happen...) (glassy-eyed eye roll).

The good news is that my estrogen is at 597, which is almost five times higher than it has ever been before, presumably because I am no longer taking Femara, a drug that can hinder estrogen levels. However, other than telling the doctor how many mature follicles I have (approx. 200 for the mature follicle, the other 400 making up the combined levels of the 5 growing follicles), I'm really not sure what role estrogen plays in ovulation and/or achieving pregnancy.

I am praying that RE knows what he is doing. However, I am of the opinion that he is too cautious, too conservative. For instance, my largest follicle grew from 16.5 to 18.5 in two days. If we did another day of drug, is there any reason to believe it would grow to a size larger than 25? Very doubtful, right? I realize that I don't have a medical degree and am slowly but surely becoming one of those obnoxious people who presume to know better than their doctors. That said, I'm also a person who has been trying for two years to get pregnant and is becoming frustrated and impatient. Bring on the aggressive treatment, I say!