HSG and Acupuncture

I called my RE's office today. On February 4, RE sent our insurance company a more official request to have the Hysterosalpingogram be covered. Hopefully we will hear back from them soon, but I'm not holding my breath considering the last response we received was practically automated and took them over two months.

I've also been considering acupuncture, as I've heard that it can be an effective way to combat infertility in some women. I haven't done a lot of research yet, but I'd be willing to give it a whirl. I'd be willing to participate in 99% of Fear Factor stunts if it meant getting pregnant. Being covered in tarantulas, jumping out of a 19th story window, eating bull testicles, what have you.

I need to find out when it is recommended (timing within the cycle), how much it would cost, whether or not it would be covered by insurance, and the best place/person in the Ind.iana.polis area for the job.

Currently feeling...

• Angry
• Left Out
• Left Behind
• Hopeless
• Frustrated
• Unable to properly deal with all of the above.
• In need of a stiff drink.

999 Reasons to Laugh at Infertility

I stumbled upon this blog a few months ago: 999 Reasons to Laugh at Infertility

Check it out, good stuff. Some of my recent favorites:

#816 "Your dog is pregnant? Yup...still jealous."

#839 "Googling 'fertility medication side effects' will not lead to positive results"

#861 "Your fertility drugs are in the refrigerator"

Those are so me. It's fantastic to find women that understand the IF Journey (read: totally craptacular unspecified number of years that make you want to have a toddler-style fit at least once a week). Reason #36 that I'm a big fan of the blogosphere!

Hysterosalpingogram -- Yowza, it's expensive.

After doing a brief survey of Google results, I deduced that the HSG would cost around $300-$500 if not covered by insurance. Certainly not cheap, but a drop in the bucket at this point. I called the practice manager at RE's office to find out for sure and she left me this message:

PM: Hi M, got your message. The fee for a Hysterosalpingogram is $355.

Me: (Not bad!)

PM: ...and then, of course, the hospital will send you a bill as well. I don't do the billing for them, but after surveying a few patients I found that the average fee from that facility will be about $900.

Me: (Oh. Bad.)

So, yeah. $1,255. Really hoping that insurance will kick in on this one, but also seriously doubting it, considering they've never covered anything in the past. Also, RE is out of town working at another one of his offices until the beginning of February and won't be able to draft a (another) letter to my insurance company until he gets back. And once they receive it, I assume that it will be a few weeks to get a response. I guess we're on hold until then.

Feeling really frustrated today. Really sick of this whole process.

Hysterosalpingogram

Just got off the phone with the nurse. "M, what are we going to do with you?!" My thoughts exactly. She said that this cycle looked beautiful -- our best yet, and that she had high hopes for us this time. Because everything looked good on paper and I'm surfing the crimson wave yet once again (who doesn't appreciate a good Clueless reference?), she thinks RE would probably be interested in doing a Hysterosalpingogram. Basically, they will inject dye into my fallopian tubes and check for blockages. The nurse that a lot of women get pregnant soon after having an HSG because even if everything looks normal, the dye being pushed through the tubes has a way of clearing everything out.

RE sent a letter to our insurance company in November to check and see if this procedure would be covered. I called today (for the third time) and, conveniently, "The reply letter was mailed out to your doctor today!" Only two months later! Anyway, the letter from the insurance company basically says absolutely nothing and that I can check my benefits online to see if I will be covered or RE can send in a predetermination request (?) to find out more. You know, the insurance company could have told us that back in November. Did it really take two months to give, for all intents and purposes, an automated response?

I have a sneaking suspicion that this will not be covered, as nothing related to fertility has been so far. So, I left a message with the practice manager today to find out what the damage would be out of pocket.

Running out of new and creative ways to say "not pregnant..."

Another disappointment. We were so hopeful this month. My estrogen levels were in line for the first time and I really thought I was having "symptoms." The problem with pregnancy symptoms, you should know, is that they are virtually identical to PMS symptoms. However, I thought that mine were different this time. There were moments were I foolishly allowed myself to believe that I was pregnant. I always try my best to not to get my hopes up, but sometimes a little hope creeps in. Eventually that tiny amount of hope becomes full-on assumption that J and I will be delivering the good news in a matter of days. So, now we wait until we can try again. Really sucks.

The Risk of Miscarriage

After spending the last 6 months or so in the blogosphere, I've come across a lot of women who have experienced the tragedy of miscarriage. My heart bleeds for these women and their husbands. I can't imagine the pain they must feel after this enormous loss.

It also leaves me wondering why so many women with infertility blogs have had miscarriages. Are women that experience infertility more likely to miscarry, or are the miscarriages part of the reason these women blog? Chicken or egg? Do I have a higher risk of miscarriage because I have PCOS?

Mia Wallace

Trigger shot administered smoothly by Nurse J! We realized that we mistakenly used a 22 gauge needle last cycle rather than a 25 gauge -- no wonder it hurt like hell! We won't be making that mistake again. I realize that a 22 gauge needle is hardly something out of Pulp Fiction, but still.

Meh.

Our appointment this morning was decent. I say "decent" because my follicles have grown since Saturday, but in a somewhat frustrating manor. They are at 18.5, 14.5, 14.5, 14, 12, and 12. So, one mature follicle and 5 that may or may not reach maturity. Because of the 18.5 and the risk of it growing too much and becoming a cyst, RE doesn't want me to continue with any more medicine (Follistim) this cycle. We were instructed to wait until tomorrow evening to trigger, hoping that the smaller ones will grow on their own in the meantime (because with my luck, I'm certain that will happen...) (glassy-eyed eye roll).

The good news is that my estrogen is at 597, which is almost five times higher than it has ever been before, presumably because I am no longer taking Femara, a drug that can hinder estrogen levels. However, other than telling the doctor how many mature follicles I have (approx. 200 for the mature follicle, the other 400 making up the combined levels of the 5 growing follicles), I'm really not sure what role estrogen plays in ovulation and/or achieving pregnancy.

I am praying that RE knows what he is doing. However, I am of the opinion that he is too cautious, too conservative. For instance, my largest follicle grew from 16.5 to 18.5 in two days. If we did another day of drug, is there any reason to believe it would grow to a size larger than 25? Very doubtful, right? I realize that I don't have a medical degree and am slowly but surely becoming one of those obnoxious people who presume to know better than their doctors. That said, I'm also a person who has been trying for two years to get pregnant and is becoming frustrated and impatient. Bring on the aggressive treatment, I say!

My Reality

You know, there are so many reality shows about there. Shows about people who can and cannot dance. Who can and cannot sing. Who want to marry a stranger. Who have 18 children (and counting). Who are willing to eat bull testicles. Why not people that are trying to make a baby? Maybe it is too much of a niche market for ABC or NBC, but what about TLC or Lifetime? For now, I'd settle for a decent movie on the subject. Suggestions?